Project Something Beautiful: MOTHERHOOD

Motherhood count for my Grandma Larrow: 1 daughter and 3 sons

Motherhood count for my Grandma Weber: 1 daughter and 2 sons

Motherhood count for my mom: me

Motherhood count for me: 1 step-daughter (and 4 fur-babies)

Counting things is one way to describe them, by no means is it the only way or even the best. But how can I describe Motherhood? In thinking on this, I realized that we carry parts of our mothers within us, our birth mothers and all who had a hand in raising & supporting us; and not just in our DNA. Thus, I think of my mom and my grandmothers and my "other mothers" (those not related, but who were there for me).

As I've grown, I realize that I don't have many memories of my mother; I don't have a lot of childhood memories really. So I can't tell you stories of my mom & I when I was little. I do remember as a teenager, we didn't get along. Not all that unusual, but still sad these many years later. After I moved away to college, well, how much time do you spend with your mother at that time of your life? And then I lost her. It was way too soon. My mom died when I was 24; she was 57. We never had the time to become friends, to work through the teen angst and get to the adult appreciation. But I hope that she has watched over me through the years and that she is proud of the woman, wife, step-mom, grandma, and person I have become. 

For my daughter, the daughter of my heart, I hope that you will remember the times we shared, from when you were young and until I am old. Watching you with your son is one of the best things in life. Hearing him say, "Mama, I like you" fills me with joy - because I like you too!! You are a wonderful mother. And for my grandson, I hope that we are able to create many memories together (you know there will be photos!). I love you both with my whole heart.

On this Mother's Day, remember and celebrate the women who make a difference in your life and in the world. May it be a special day.

This post is part of a series and a blog circle titled "Project Something Beautiful," exploring our lives and emotions. I'm so excited to collaborate with this wonderful group of talented women. For more on MOTHERHOOD, check out Tina's blog: Love Came Down Photography

Tea & Tulips in the Garden

Spring means tulips! And being outside, and tea in the garden, just because we can. Or a little rose vino if you are so inclined. Because what could be more civilized? 

And because things aren't always what they seem, the final photo is a pull-back showing the "garden" in its full, reality based mess!

I would love to capture the joy of your tea party in the garden, or just in your house!!

I hope you enjoy!

Click on the photo to see larger & move through the gallery.

Project Something Beautiful: HESITANT

I can’t count the number of times in my life I’ve been hesitant, overcome with fears & doubts & uncertainty; the times I just sat there because I couldn't make a move. Those seem to be the times that weigh heavily on my heart. Like the time that a friend invited me to go with her to England, where her daughter was living. Great opportunity that slipped through my hands like ice cream on a hot day – because I hesitated. Or when I had multiple job opportunities but let the one I really wanted get taken by someone else (but the one I took worked out just fine in the long run).

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But just as important are those times where I’ve jumped in with both feet. No hesitation, even if there should have been some (isn’t hindsight just a kicker?). Some turned out great, like the 1927 Spanish style house just a few blocks from the beach we bought “on a whim,” when we weren’t even looking to move; bought because I knew we were meant to live there. Some others were not so great. But when I jumped in, I took action and moved in a direction. No longer stuck in one place.

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So, what is the key in all of this? How do I know when to hesitate and when to jump? The answer is that I don’t. Many times I feel as if I’m spinning in circles. I ask for advice from my family and trusted friends. Ultimately, I'm the one who has to choose.

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But as I’ve gotten older and more grounded in my life and my faith and who I am, I know one thing for certain. Whether I hesitate or jump, God is right there with me. My rock and my refuge. And "I will put my trust in you." (Psalm 55:26)

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This post is part of a series and a blog circle titled "Project Something Beautiful," exploring our lives and emotions. I'm so excited to collaborate with this wonderful group of talented women. For more on HESITANT, check out Tina's blog here: Love Came Down Photography

Project Something Beautiful: DETERMINATION

Recipe for DETERMINATION

TOTAL TIME NEEDED: a lifetime

YIELD: self-satisfaction & joy

LEVEL OF DIFFICULTY: variable with each passing day/month/year

Take equal amounts of:

  • Dreams
  • Hopes
  • Courage
  • Fearlessness
  • Strength
  • Self-Worth
  • Willpower
  • Focus
  • Passion
  • Intention
  • FAITH
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Mix well.

Pour over any doubt, fear, hopelessness, despair, discouragement, indecision, hesitation

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Repeat as needed.

"Courage, sacrifice, determination, commitment, toughness, heart, talent, guts. That's what little girls are made of."                                                              -Bethany Hamilton, Soul Surfer

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This post is part of a series and a blog circle titled "Project Something Beautiful," exploring our lives and emotions. I'm so excited to collaborate with this wonderful group of talented women. For more on DETERMINATION, check out Suzi's blog from the other side of the globe here: Moments by Suzi

Project Something Beautiful: BALANCE

Equilibrium, evenness, aligned. All synonyms for Balance. We all want our lives to be in balance. And that often means easy. As with so much, we think that if we can only balance work and family and play and grocery shopping and laundry and doctor visits and sweeping the floors and, and, and that we will find that magical place where all is right in our world. 

But true balance is not found from the things outside of us. It is the balance between self and soul. Between darkness and light. Between the devil and God. That is the balance that matters. I speak not because I have this figured out. I speak because I fight for that balance. It isn't easy. I don't think it's meant to be easy.. 

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I hadn’t really thought of it in those terms before last Saturday night/Sunday morning. But now things seem more clear to me. I had a terrible night. Still sick with a cold, restless body with pains everywhere, restless mind that couldn’t let go, restless soul that could barely offer a prayer for help. Flailing arms and legs. Rolling from side to side. I was struck with the conviction that I was losing everything important to me in this life. Fear and anxiety, a sense of coming apart. Struggle. Finally, I slept for a few hours.

When I woke I had the clear & distinct feeling that I had been through something very profound during the darkness. I had wrestled with the night, with the dark and come through victorious into the light. Even when I could not hold onto the words to reach out to Jesus, he was with me in that place. I had no choice but to surrender and let go. To trust. To believe. And I was given back the balance to stand on my feet and exault in the goodness of the Lord.

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This post is part of a series and a blog circle titled "Project Something Beautiful," exploring our lives and emotions. I'm so excited to collaborate with this wonderful group of talented women. For more on BALANCE, check out Chanelle's blog from the other side of the globe here: Chanelle Megan Photography

Project Something Beautiful: REFLECT

What a word for the beginning of the new year! This is a time when many stop to reflect on the past year and set goals for the new one. However, in contemplating this word, I ended up at a different place. Reflect - to mirror.

When we first looked at buying this house we now live in, we were struck by the huge floor to ceiling mirrors flanking the fireplace in the living room. This room is right when you walk into the house. The previous owners had already moved out and the house was empty. Those mirrors looked like something out of a department store; they were an eye sore! We commented, that they "had to go." 

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But once we moved in and filled the room with our furniture, we realized something - those mirrors reflected so much light into the room. By reflecting the light and the room, those mirrors made the space feel so much bigger, so much brighter. In fact, many of our friends thought the room extended past the fireplace and continued on the other side. Needless to say, they are still there today. 

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Likewise, I want to be a reflection - I want to reflect God's light and love and grace and compassion and healing and hope out into the world. God has given me so much in this life. I can only pray to be his mirror and make everything and everyone around me brighter. This is the one year anniversary of my joining The Order of the Daughters of the King. I wear the cross of the Order every day, and I ask, "Lord, what would you have me do?" I am so grateful for another way to reflect God's love through service, prayer, and evangelism. 

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This post is part of a series and a blog circle titled "Project Something Beautiful," exploring our lives and emotions. I'm so excited to collaborate with this wonderful group of talented women. For more on REFLECT, check out Suzi's blog here:  Moments by Suzi

ENGAGE 2018

Happy 2018!! If you're like me, you can't believe 2017 is gone and we are looking to a new year. Which brings lots of new possibilities. I am super excited to see what wonders will come in the next twelve months. And in preparation, I decided that my "one simple word" for this year is ENGAGE. To me it's about being in the moment, looking for ways to make an impact, finding what I can do to make a difference, risking the unknown.

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ENGAGE also means reaching out in new endeavors, taking a chance, not being afraid to fail. And with that said, Dawn Switzer Photography is launched in 2018. 

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Here's to a wonderful year of engagement!!

Project Something Beautiful: STILL

Originally published September 16, 2017

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STILL

Calm. Quiet. Reflect. Peace. God. Breathe. Me. Rest. Difficult. Fleeting. Worth fighting for.

I am blessed to be able to start my day being STILL with God ~ to me, these go hand in hand. I read his Word, I write my prayers, I meditate, I reflect, I breathe. And I feel the stillness within, and peace.

 

But then the day moves on and that stillness is left in the dust as I take care of the seemingly millions of little things and some big ones. There always seems to be one more thing that needs to be done; one more something. One more way to keep moving. One more thing for my brain to focus on, to worry over. One more, one more, one more... I want my stillness to be with me throughout my day. I need that grounded feeling to stay balanced. By dinner time, usually earlier, my morning stillness has evaporated, not to be found again until the new day dawns. And my soul is unsettled.

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If I can only stop for a bit in the midst of all the movement and recharge. I need to be still. I remember a meditation prayer taught to me about a year ago by Rev. Judy Yates Siker during a woman's retreat ... and I take some time to breathe.

 Be still and know that I am God

Be still and know

Be still

Be

 

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And I am made whole.

Meditation ~ Psalm 46:10

 

This post is part of a series and a blog circle titled "Project Something Beautiful," exploring our lives and emotions. I'm so excited to collaborate with this wonderful group of talented women. For more on STILL, check out Britney's blog here:  Britney Wharton Photography