Project Something Beautiful: MOTHERHOOD

Motherhood count for my Grandma Larrow: 1 daughter and 3 sons

Motherhood count for my Grandma Weber: 1 daughter and 2 sons

Motherhood count for my mom: me

Motherhood count for me: 1 step-daughter (and 4 fur-babies)

Counting things is one way to describe them, by no means is it the only way or even the best. But how can I describe Motherhood? In thinking on this, I realized that we carry parts of our mothers within us, our birth mothers and all who had a hand in raising & supporting us; and not just in our DNA. Thus, I think of my mom and my grandmothers and my "other mothers" (those not related, but who were there for me).

As I've grown, I realize that I don't have many memories of my mother; I don't have a lot of childhood memories really. So I can't tell you stories of my mom & I when I was little. I do remember as a teenager, we didn't get along. Not all that unusual, but still sad these many years later. After I moved away to college, well, how much time do you spend with your mother at that time of your life? And then I lost her. It was way too soon. My mom died when I was 24; she was 57. We never had the time to become friends, to work through the teen angst and get to the adult appreciation. But I hope that she has watched over me through the years and that she is proud of the woman, wife, step-mom, grandma, and person I have become. 

For my daughter, the daughter of my heart, I hope that you will remember the times we shared, from when you were young and until I am old. Watching you with your son is one of the best things in life. Hearing him say, "Mama, I like you" fills me with joy - because I like you too!! You are a wonderful mother. And for my grandson, I hope that we are able to create many memories together (you know there will be photos!). I love you both with my whole heart.

On this Mother's Day, remember and celebrate the women who make a difference in your life and in the world. May it be a special day.

This post is part of a series and a blog circle titled "Project Something Beautiful," exploring our lives and emotions. I'm so excited to collaborate with this wonderful group of talented women. For more on MOTHERHOOD, check out Tina's blog: Love Came Down Photography